Poem for Mums.

This was an email sent to me, I'm posting it for all the Mums!


Before I was a Mum:I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.I never thought about immunisations.Before I was a Mum - I had never been puked on, pooped on,chewed on & peed on.I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.I slept all night.Before I was a Mum:I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.Or give shots.I never looked into teary eyes and cried.I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.Before I was a Mum:I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down.I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.I never knew that I could love someone so much.I never knew I would love being a Mum.Before I was a Mum:I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.Before I was a Mum:I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, theamazement or the satisfaction of being a Mum.I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mum.

FEAR

Fear can be so painful that we will do almost anything to avoid it.
Much of our lives are spent avoiding our fears and paying for the price of avoidance.
To avoid these fears/emotions we sometimes change or distract our states with all sorts of unhealthy habits, thoughts and emotions.
What we are unwilling to experience can run our lives, for example if we fear flying we stay out of planes , if we fear love we try and live without it.
Unfortunately we often wait and allow ourselves to be faced with more pain than we can tolerate, before deciding to take action and make change happen, and so we continue doing what we are doing.

example:
He associates pain with love. In his last relationship he found himself left alone and lonely. So what does he do?
He avoids love, and stays alone because of the fear of being left alone (its a contradiction).
he is living his fear anyway!

We will live our fears if we do not face them!
Confronting our fears sets us free from them.
Confronting our emotions (fear , anger etc.) is one of life’s biggest challenges, learning to neither suppress or indulge in these emotions and just learning from them I think is the key to being free of them.
I believe that with persistence, the right focus's to help change our negative associations and faith ( be it in ourselves ,our creator , universe, whatever our beleifs are that we find comfort in) we can all head towards obtaining this freedom for ourselves...............


I think I think waaaay too much. Sometimes I have these moments of clarity and
eveything comes together, a light bulb moment that just makes so much sense , so I will write it all down (above ,written a while ago). I'll read over it and think, yep thats great now all I have to do is live by it.
Then the following week I get so caught up in the ego world again (so to speak) and its all out the window. How can we grasp something so well one minute and then it be completely alien to us the next????
I know that our focus's are what drive us , but sometimes it can be a real challange not letting outside influences control our focus's! I suppose that's when I need to refer back to the first part of this post and get me some persistance to focus correctly and some extra faith!!

I also think that after reading back over this I might need a panadol and bed :-) xx nite