They are all special to me in there own ways and I thank god I have them!
But being a girly girl myself I desperately wanted
a little girl. As happy as I was, I always felt a sense
of not being complete, I longed for a daughter, someone I
could share all those girly things with, someone that I could
relate to. Tea parties , pretty dresses , shopping, dolls, those special
girly chats and that bond that a mother and daughter share.
Before Sage was even a thought I had this dream........
I dreamt of this little girl, this beautiful little baby girl that I was holding,
and in my dream, she was MINE!!
She was breathtaking, she had these blue eyes....... and her name was Sage.
I fell in love with this baby , I felt complete.
Then something awful happened......I woke up only to find out it wasn't
my reality. I felt this overwhelming feeling of emptiness. I turned over to
Paul he was fast asleep, so I woke him of course :) to tell him about my dream.
I told him all about her, about how beautiful she was and how real my dream seemed and about
that name... 'Sage' ,I had never heard of it before, I loved it!! Not a name that I would
have typically picked , but it was perfect.
Paul listened to me (not that he had much choice lol) but reminded me it was just a dream and we have three beautiful boys and we agreed we weren't having anymore kids.
As much as we wanted a little girl it wasn't right to plan a baby in the hope of having a girl.
I knew he was right but I couldn't help but feel miserable.
I just had to accept it.
About a week later I was stuck in bed with this virus, I was so tired and sick.
I couldn't seem to shake it no matter how much rest I had. Then it hit me ....this really feels
like morning sickness , so off I went to the chemist to get my test.
I came home did my test and GUESS WHAT?????
Yep, I was pregnant, with MY LITTLE GIRL, and guess what we called her??
She is two and a half now and this is no exaggeration, not a single day that goes by do
I not think.... I can not believe I've got a little girl!!! It's like it still hasn't hit me. Every time I put her in a little dress, every time I brush her hair, or play dolls with her , every time we cuddle, every time she's covered in my lipstick or my moisturiser or strutting her stuff down the hallway in my high heels, I am reminded of how blessed and lucky I am.
She is the most amazing little person, everything I could have ever wanted.
She's cheeky, she's so loving , she's clever, she's assertive, she's bossy :) , she's
nurturing, she's so bloody funny and she is beautiful!!
Her Dad tears up every couple of days when she comes out with something sweet or she says, 'I love you Daddy',although he tears up even more with the thought of her turning 16!
He is always reminding me of the line he will be using on the boy that comes to the door for her.... 'That's fine , you can take out my daughter , but just remember..........
whatever you do to her I will do to you'! God help that poor kid.
She is so loved by all of her brothers they treat her like an absolute princess and she just adores everyone of them. Zak is the one she looks for for running through the house and playing hide and seek , Jaye is the one she seeks for stories and cuddles and Ricky is the one she is comforted by when she's feeling unsure.
NO chance of her ever getting a boyfriend though!
Not with three brothers and her dad.
(Although , I suppose she won't need one in the nunnery :)
We think even the boys feel complete now , Jaye says to me regularly I'm so glad I've got a sister mummy.
So that's the story (so far) of our little Princess who obviously was just meant to be here.
1 comment:
That last photo is sooooo cute!!!
Sue xx
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